Monthly Archives: June 2010

AlectoBloPoMo 3

Max Lucado talks about grace in an essay entitle “Behind the Shower Curtain”, found in the book When God Whispers Your Name. He has a discussion with a friend about grace. The friend didn’t like the fact that Max was pretty open about who he spent time with. According to Max, “If God calls a person His child, shouldn’t I call him my brother?” And, “If God accepts others with their errors and misinterpretations, shouldn’t we?” The friend’s response was that Max was carrying things a bit too far, that fences are necessary, that scripture is clear about such matters. He then admonished Max to “be careful to whom you give grace.” Max said, “I don’t give it. I only spotlight where God already has.” He then makes a statement that has stuck with me over the years, because I’m as guilty as anyone when it comes right down to it:

“I”ve never been surprised by God’s judgment, but I’m still stunned by His grace.”

There are stories all through the Bible about God’s judgment. The destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah. Drowning the Egyptians in the Red Sea. When bad things happen to bad people, we (I) say “They deserved it.” But when we (I) see God’s grace showered down to someone who, in our (my) estimation doesn’t deserve it, we (I) get all self-righteous about it. Who are we to say who can and can not receive God’s grace? Who am I to say??

Max continues:

“I’m not for watering down the truth or compromising the gospel. But if a fellow with a pure heart calls God ‘father’, can’t I call that same man ‘brother’? If God doesn’t make doctrinal perfection a requirement for family membership, should I? And if we never agree, can’t we agree to disagree? I God can tolerate my mistakes, can’t I overlook the mistakes of others? If God allows me, with my foibles and failures, to call him ‘Father’, shouldn’t I extend the same grace to others? One thing’s for sure: when we get to heaven, we’ll be surprised by some of the folks we see. And some of them will be surprised when they see us.”

There’s a scene in the movie The Mission when a man who used to capture South American natives and sell them into slavery in Europe goes back to those same natives to live in a monastery or something as punishment for his crimes. The monastery is located at the top of a very high waterfall. The priests tell the criminal not to bring any possessions with him, but he insists on piling up everything he owns and lugging it up the waterfall. More than once, he loses his balance and nearly plunges to his death because of the heavy load he’s carrying on his back. He finally makes it to the top and collapses. He looks up to see a native coming toward him with a very large machete, and he knows that this man has come for revenge. The native stands over him with the knife and he knows he’s going to die. Then the native reaches down and cuts away the rope holding the bundle of possessions and lets it fall back down to the bottom of the waterfall. The native then embraces the man who was responsible for killing or selling members of his own tribe.

At that moment, the criminal experienced grace. And at that moment, he entered heaven. Still alive and kicking.

Heaven and hell both exist, and you don’t have to die to enter either one. Most of us choose heaven or hell, not really knowing that’s what we’re choosing.

Back to the prompt: I’m with Max. I’ll be surprised at some of the people I see there. And some of them will undoubtedly be surprised to see me. There will be no fences except for those I will be jumping on horseback.

AlectoBloPoMo 2

You Have died. You are in hell. Discuss.

There’s a joke that goes something like this: A man dies and goes to hell. He looks around and sees everyone standing waist-deep in crap, smoking cigarettes. Old Scratch himself is nowhere in sight. The man thinks to himself, “Well if this is hell, it doesn’t look too bad.” He wades into the crap where someone welcomes him and offers him a smoke. He accepts, and for a moment he lets the cigarette slide gently between his fingers as he anticipates lighting it and taking that first long drag. His neighbor strikes a match and turns toward him, offering to light the cigarette. He leans in, empties his lungs so he can inhale deeply. He hasn’t smoked in DECADES. As he begins to draw breath through the once-banned giver of pleasure…Satan walks into the room and shouts, “All right people! Break time’s over. Back on your heads!!!”

Sometimes what looks like “heaven” is actually “hell”, and the other way ’round in reverse.

Take bikram, for instance.

AlectoBloPoMo 1

It’s Alecto’s fault, all of it.

The previous blog entry here talks about me falling off a horse, Inki. Right after that, I went on vacation and Inki got really sick and almost died. (She’s all better now.) After vacation, daughter and I go back to the barn and I’m stuck with Chick the ex-barrel-racing maniac horse. Two weeks ago today I fell off Chick. Actually Chick sort of tossed me, after he lost his mind, bunny hopped over 3 gymnastics, slammed on his brakes and yanked his head down to the ground. I’m pretty sure I sprained my back on that one.

So, Memorial Day I”m home still recovering from Chick and feeling just crappy, physically, mentally, emotionally, any other -ally you can think of. Found Alecto floating around on the web and told her something like “I hurt and I wanna run away from home.” One thing sort of lead to another and in the time it would take me to fall off another horse, we had located a Bikram studio here in my neck of the woods. I committed to going Tuesday morning at 9:30, with the promise that I would check in with Alecto afterward.

Now it’s Tuesday again, I’ve been back to bikram every day and have invested in another 3 weeks of unlimited visits. Every day I’ve simultaneously dreaded and anticipated going. It’s insane. Why would anyone in her right mind deliberately go into a 105 degree torture chamber, with mirrors even, and sweat, breathe and contort herself for 90 minutes?

And the answer is…..for me, anyway….

to take care of myself.

When I take care of myself, my body continues to hurt after I leave the studio, but my mind is clearer. I sleep better. I eat less, and what I do eat is better for me than what I’ve been eating. (I don’t even miss the Happy Meals!) I’m doing more and thinking less. I’m trying to undo 20 years of damage. I didn’t get this way overnight and I won’t get better overnight.

But when I take care of myself, I take a step in the direction of better.

So, it’s Tuesday again. I’ve been to bikram for 8 days straight. I can’t keep up with Alecto’s 30 in 30 because I’m taking Friday and Saturday and running away from home to go…home.  I’m going to ride Inki this afternoon and not fall off.  And I’m going to try and keep up with AlectoBloPoMo as much as possible.

What is this world coming to?